Motherhood!!

I swear there really is no better job than being a mom. I love it so much and love each and everyone of my kids. It makes me so happy to watch them grow into their own little individuals. I love cherishing these moments cause one day they will be grown up and on their own and not needing me for every little thing.

I think this explains it all

What is Right

I can hear the children
laughing in the other room.

My two girls and my boy.

They are happy voices and
I struggle not to think about
the mess they're making.

How technical this
homemaking can be, if I let it.

Cleaning, straightening, laundry, cooking.
Everything must be just so.

But the babies, my sweet babies.
Their big brown eyes, their Father's eyes,
Soft, chubby hands and sweet sloppy kisses.

If I must struggle to remember something,
let it be what is right.

(c) 1998 Shelly W. All Rights Reserved

HOT!!

Today was our first hot day. Hit 95 degrees which for May in Idaho is just CRAZY!! Poor Bradley was so uncomfortable from the heat and being we have no AC it really sucked. I couldn't even turn on the sprinkler for Sara to cool off cause we have set watering days. Only can turn on the water Wed, Fri, and Sunday :( BOOOO! dang city limits! Did give Bradley a cool down bath though he really enjoyed that! We got the fans going hopefully it will cool down the house so Bradley can have a good night!!
Check out this Video of Bradley Cooing. I really love it when he does this. It is really amazing on how fast they start to grow up. Here soon he will be talking up a storm and I will be wishing for these days back. Thank goodness we have sites like this to keep these memories alive and of course backup Cd's!!

Girls

It really is amazing how fast time flies! Ivory is now 7 and just finishing the first grade! She is readying at a 6th grade level and doing math at a 3rd grade level. She is way smart and knows it. So love to dance, sing, and drive her mama bananas.
Sara just got signed up for Kindergarten and did her pre testing. She did great! No issues at all. They were very impressed being that both of my girls never went to preschool. Here are some updated photos of them. Hopefully we will have all the kids pictured together soon!!

Bradley 1 month Photos!

Bradley had some 1 month photos done last week. He is such a cutie! We are still waiting for the CD that has a bunch more photos. Here in the next few weeks we are planning to get family photos done!

Bradley's Birth Story

What a journey that past almost 10 months have been. Bradley was born April 9, 2009 @ 12:35am. At this point I was 39wks and 4 days.
His birth story really starts on Tuesday April 7th. I worked all day which was good cause I was on my feet. I have been dealing with contractions off and on and was hoping they would get regular. That evening I was just in so much pain and could barley walk Josh and I decided we should go in and get check out just in case. When we get there doctor was there already so he decided to check me and go from there. I was still only a 4 so he said monitor me for an hour and see if there was any change. Hour later no change and the baby was still really high barley a stage -3. He said he could break my water but that was to much of a risk for both me and the baby with him that high. So we go home. I got no sleep that night with all the contractions.
Wednesday morning still contracting like crazy. Go to the doctors office to have my blood pressure check (last few weeks its been high) and it was high but not too high that the doctor felt it was okay for time being. Around 11am my contractions really start to get stronger and are about 5-7 mins apart. Josh set up the room so that the kids wouldn't bug me and I can try to get some rest. 3pm rolls along and now we are dealing with 3-4 min contractions. Some put me into tears some were okay. At around 6:00pm we decided to call the doctor to give him an update by this time they are 2-3 mins apart and my hips are starting to kill me. Doctor knows how much I hate being sent home so he said give it 30-60 mins if they get worse or stronger come in. Josh and I start to get everything situated between the dogs and the kids. We get to the hospital about 7:30. Nurse checks me I am about a 5cm and baby has now started to lower. They call doctor and he heads in. He gets there about 8pm checks me and decides baby is lower enough to not be at risk so he says lets get this really going and breaks my water. What a relief I am finally going to have my baby boy!!! At this point the girls are still in the hospital with us. Dad came and brought Beverly and she watched the girls out in the waiting room. At about 9pm my contractions were so hard I was having a hard time breathing and consintrating. I started to feel pressure. The nurse check me and from what she could tell I was an 8cm. I think woot its almost over. Ofcourse at this point I was in so much pain I was ready to be over. Doctor comes in and I am only a 8cm on the out but still only about a 6.5-7cm in but baby was pushing doing. At this point even though I wanted a natural birth like the girls I opted to try the IV meds that is suppose to take the edge off. Yeah no luck! So I ended up getting an Epideral. By 10:00 I was finally able to relax. I could still feel some of the contractions but I was able to breathe so much better. Around 10:30 dad heads off to take Beverly and the kids home so they could get some sleep. Now it is just Josh and I and all the nurses .
Around 11pm I started to feel pressure. I got checked and we were almost ready to start pushing just had a little bit more to go. Bad thing is they had to put me on Oxygen cause Bradley's vitals looked a little low. He was also still very high and it was going to take a lot of pushing to get him out. 11:30pm we are pushing, and pushing and pushing. OMG I swear this took for ever. Here it is midnight and we are still pushing! Finally 12:30 we start the finally pushes and try to turn him cause he decided he wanted to come down not facing the correct way which makes sense after all that pushing and pain. 12:35am on Thursday he is finally here! They put him up on my chest and I got to touch him before they took him to get weighted and measured. He was also doing a wheezing noise so they had a nicu nurse come in and check him out. Of course I have no idea what is going on cause I had some pretty bad tears that required a lot of time to take care off. Josh was able to get a few pictures of him screaming. That was the last time I would see Bradley for almost 5 hours .
I finally get to get into the Nicu u to see him and I wanted to cry. He was hooked up to all kinds of machines, had a tube in his mouth, IV in his hand, on Oxygen. I couldn't believe that after all this and him being full term he was having issues. They took the tube out of his mouth around 9am and I finally got to try and breastfeed him at 10am. By Thursday evening the doctors were letting me feed him every 3 hours. Friday morning around 11am, they had the IV out and he was off the oxygen. We also got to start demand feeding him. He was looking a lot better and if all went well we could bring him home Saturday.
Saturday morning I was discharged but could stay until midnight. I went in to feed Bradley around 8:30am and the doctor was there. He explained that though Bradley looks fine his blood work show that he is fighting an infection. They want to keep him 3 more days for IV antibiotics. As long as blood work was good Tuesday morning he would be able to go home. I was so upset all I really took from this is I have to go home without my baby. It was such a hard and long day Saturday I cried a lot. I leave the hospital around 6pm after Bradleys feeding and told them to call me for the next one. Went in feed him around 9pm and than went back home to sleep. Not that I really did sleep at all. Sunday same deal back and fourth to spend time with him and the kids. Here it is Monday and I am getting ready to go down there to spend an hour or so with him. Hopefully tomorrow we get the good news and can bring him home. I just can't wait to finally have him here. I know its better him there until he is a 100% than he can finally come home and his sisters can finally spend some time with him!!

***Bradley came home April 14th 2009. Since he has been home we have had no issues woot!***

39wk checkup

So this afternoon I had pretty much my 39wk check up. For about the
past two weeks I have been having contractions on and off which I am
told is normal though I never experienced with my other two pregnancies. Last Sunday we were in L/D and they thought for sure we were going to have the baby but after 14hours never got past a 3cm and sent me home with 3 mins apart contractions. I haven't been check since Sunday and I have had a lot more pressure and takes me forever to walk anywhere and I have been making it a point to at least walk for 3 hours a day. At my last appointment I was told baby be between 7-8pounds which sounds like good size to me.

Today I go in figuring I would most likely be check cause almost 39wks and I haven't been checked since Sunday. All he did was check my BP, measure my
belly, and hear the babies heart beat. Baby sounds great but now we are
talking about a 9lbs baby. I have had one 9lb baby that almost ended up
in a c-section and was a horrible labor experience cause she was so
big. So I was there a big 5 mins and got next Fridays appointment
scheduled. I am so afraid that the baby is going to be too big that I
have to have a c-section and I will literally freak out. Last week he
told me we would talk about ways to help labor along or even induction
since I have never gone into labor naturally and always seem to have to
get help at the end. But there was no talk about it at all. Not that I want to be induced I would love to go into labor on my own but right now I am starting to freak out on the whole size issue and being in so much pain. Like I said before never experienced this at all with either one of my other pregnancies.

Thanks for reading feel a bit better typing it all down.

38wks 3days

I feel like this pregnancy is really starting to take a toll on me. Not only to I seem really crabby lately I have a hard time not jumping at everyone. I have been having contractions for over a week with barley and progress. I am at the point that I can't even tell if its false labor or real labor. Doctor told me to not be discourage or stop coming to L/D because I get sent home. I hate being at the hospital more than I have to let alone go home when I am having contractions 3 mins apart. This is what happen to me on Sunday. Went in at 11am with contractions about 4-5 mins apart was at a 2cm than walked a bit and got to a 3cm than stayed that way from the rest of the time I was there no matter what we tried. So at midnight I go home still having these contractions with no progress, tired as hell, and hurting.
Now its Wednesday, and back in the same boat except this time I don't want to go in and get check out to be just sent home. I am tired, cranky, and not in the mood to deal with nurses. Plus Josh has already missed so much work I don't want him to miss anymore.
You think I be use to this with 2 other kids but never have I gone through this at all. I just went in and had them not 20 million trips or false alarms.
Grrrr..... when is enough, enough!